Love is only an illusion.

I fall in love with A, B, C ....etc....trying to look into the true meaning of it.
Chaotically....all the untrue passion, invented feeling that I created or the girl created, will eventually go down into the drain.

After much thought, and a lot of things that happened between me and Miss S, I felt the true love between us. I didn't know how to tell you readers on how I am sure of the love between me and Miss S.

Although we tried to keep our love alive, tried to get marry,...but it didn't materialized, caused by her familly attitude toward me. They think, a techer like me was not suitable for their daughter, who is a vet. Dr. We, Miss S and I tried everything....but maybe because I'm so naive, didn't realized how the cruel the world, people that are arround you. Me and Miss S, was let apart......and now she is married to someone and I married to Miss R.

Although the feeling to miss S is still there, still in my heart, but I realized she might has changed, I might have changed beyond her acceptance. Or perhaps the probabilities of getting the old flame is too slim.....that is why I said, that love is just an illusion. You can see it, but will not be able to control it. You knew your feeling towards the person you love, but it is not a things that you will be able to have it for a long time. When time comes, your love toward a person will have to change.....by the situation arround you,. You might think that your love is true love....but still your true love will sometime failed to let you be with the person you love....God Wills.

Now....with a wive, she need my love. I tried to give her my love....but the true love will only occurs once. I felt sorry for her....but she need to realized, part of me has already been taken by Miss S. I couldn't change that. It is the illusion that will always be in my mind, my life.

If Miss S read this ....she is everything to me once, when I was madly in love, intoxicated with her love, true love,......but now once we are forced to accept whatever the situation, we are suddenly awakened,....we need to realized, love is just illusion....we might not let it go, we might like to dream the wonderful of it, the beautifulness of it....but still we need to be awake, and it will hurt us badly.

Still loving you
Dr. Mohd Arif Agam

( Well do you convinced with the story....it is just a fantacy)